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I was wondering today how much our dreams affect our waking lives.  I had a very... I can't say strange... unusual dream last night, involving a gray vintage VW Beetle and a girl I don't know.  There was another part where I was walking with a guy I don't know who was playing with some cards and telling me strange things.  I was hiding from some people, I think I may have killed someone in my dream.  As many of my more "important" dreams go, this one was pretty surreal.

So I suppose I've been thinking a lot about it today.  Who was that girl?  And as I describe the dream and who these people are, they're not really people that I don't know - they don't actually exist.  It's not like I'm sharing my dreams with someone else.  I don't buy into a collective dream state.  There's no evidence for that.  But I didn't want to say "dream-girl", since that implies something completely different from the role this person played in my dream.

Also, it bears rather significant noting that I was not the person that I am in my dream.  That is, I was not myself there.  I suppose that I was mostly me, but a different me.  Almost like a parallel universe kind of me.  Someone who would kill people?  Someone who would spend a night alone in a compact car with a stranger who is probably a heroin addict?

These sort of dreams always leave me in a weird state for the rest of the day.  Maybe I spend too much time thinking about them.  But it seems that there is something significant my subconscious is trying to tell me, and it bothers me that I'm not able to figure it out.

Ever have to take a test of some kind in your dreams?  Not necessarily on paper, but just some kind of challenge.  Ever wonder upon waking how you were ever smart enough to think up such a complex test and its answer?  Hmm.  Am I even lucky in that I remember my dreams?

Sorry the writing is bad today.  I'm obviously distracted.